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Our first poem for winter is by Kerry Darbishire
A Winter Gift
If the eggs didn’t nudge each other
in the blood-warm bucket of water and they floated
to the top, we took them out. I watched twelve
out of fourteen fidget then sink like mint-white pebbles.
That first January
our present of two geese and a gander
from a farm on the coast, panicked over hedges –
flapped their new wings into Peter’s field
as if migrating until we caught them
and they softened like air in our hands.
Amber beaks clattered, sapphire eyes pinned
the beginning of a story we hugged into a shed
of fresh straw. Henry, Gertie and Lucy discovered the river,
bagged the best lawns and on Valentine’s day,
slipped moonshine eggs like secrets into caskets of down.
Henry became a queens’ guard outside the sanctuary –
dressed in hissing armour, neck to the ground
patrolling inside to tuck in loose straw and roll back runaways
before they cooled. For twenty eight days they processed
to the river to drink, dampen breast feathers,
tend their caches while we prayed for no thunder to addle,
no drought and no hungry foxes. Come early May
our garden rolled in yellow like curls of butter over green plates.
Our years of scattering grain, opening and closing
their warm mornings and frosty nights slowed
until all they could do was trust and warn us of strangers.
Now in silence, grass grows undisturbed – even the river
seems less useful and my cakes are pale. On winter nights
I reach into the cupboard inside a dark box tissue-soft
and unwrap blown undecorated Fabergé.
Our ending happened as a gift. That day
the change blew through us. A shudder-flood
of starlings flung away like iron filings
while we gripped the path, jackets billowing,
hair full sail. Even the features of your face,
grim-set against the wind, threatened
to unmoor. We flattened our feet upon
the track as thorns thrashed into new shapes
against a damaged sky and the coconut scent
of warm gorse faded on the air. At the peak,
great lumps of basalt, torn from the hills
some other devil day, lay hurled about.
The wind whirled in the coves of our ears
to make them into echo chambers,
casting our voices off elsewhere,
sending thought to unspoken places.
All at once, each flailing thing was stilled.
We faced each other. Not a word. We knew.
As you scrambled, separate, down the scree,
the heather foamed, on fire beneath my feet.
When I lost something valuable,
I gave it a name, inscribed it on a pebble,
piece of wood, paper, cloth or shell,
placed it in my handbag, let the words settle
in with the rest of my losses defining me –
keys to my anxiety and loneliness,
notebook and pen to record panic attacks,
iPhone, lipstick, comb, cards calling for attention,
tissues folded in cellophanes of adjustment –
carrying on with my chores as if nothing
was the matter, clutching my grief
like a mascot, trying to transcend
that feeling of things missing, life passing,
shrinking, until disappointment rushes in,
weighing me down with further losses,
and my bag too heavy to hold my dreams,
complains this is no way to treasure
hard-earned gifts enriched by dispossession,
awaken to the true nature of being,
no longer be defined by this or that.
In a long-shadowed corner of this orchard
the farmer has emptied barrel-loads of fallen fruit;
my father might well have done the same—
I wish I could recall.
He was a blackcurrant farmer,
A man who also loved wild birds.
His keen spirit stalks us in the sharp wreckage
of winter prunings; in the branch boneyard
where cherry trees are skeletons of their summer selves;
where decomposing, dappled pears send out tendrils
of fragrance into frost-pinched, ice-pearled air
and snare the fieldfares as they pass.
Above our heads fat crab-apples hang:
jewels on the bulbous ropes of aged branches,
priceless rubies on a sapphire sky.
A single fieldfare rises, topaz speckled,
white underwings in chevrons, her back
gleaming garnets in the horizontal light.
She turns, flings skyward with her diamond beak aimed
unswerving at the apple sun.
The flock explodes—twelve, twenty, two hundred birds
all mocking frost on hoar-bleached branches;
all celebrating the farmer’s luscious gifts,
chuckling with glee over winter windfalls.
Mother is sitting on her sofa peeling a satsuma or clementine, or some other small, orange citrus fruit. She has removed the skin in small, fingernail-sized pieces, and is now carefully detaching quivering strands of pith, and placing them with precision next to the teetering pile of skin on the arm of the sofa. I will be clearing it off later.
After removing as much of the pith as she is able she will eat the satsuma or clementine or whatever it is, chewing each individual segment with the three teeth she has left in her mouth and extracting the juicy orange flesh from inside the translucent membrane with her tongue. Then, one by one, she will remove the fleshless membranes from her mouth and place them with the pile of skin and pith.
When she has finished this process, which normally takes around thirty minutes, she will sit for a time, turning now and then to look at the pile of skin, pith and membranes, perhaps rearranging them a little. Very occasionally she will carefully gather the pile of detritus and place it on the coffee table in front of her, where she will sit for some further time, regarding it judiciously.
Eventually, she will shuffle forward on her seat, and with some effort stand up and walk over to the fruit bowl where she will spend some moments selecting another small, orange citrus fruit. Thus the entire process will be repeated, ad infinitum should the fruit supply allow.
I have learnt to pace the small orange citrus fruits. Four for the morning, four for the afternoon, or occasionally, on a bad day, five. None for the evening. In the evening she will doze, lulled by the clatter of family life and television drama. But during the day, it is just her and I, and neither of us sleep.
She has eaten the final fruit of the afternoon and is agitated. It is only 4 o’clock. There are countless more small, orange citrus fruits, hidden under the stairs. Her netted pacifiers. Glancing up now and then as I tap at my computer, I silently observe her, hovering beside the fruit bowl, now and then grasping one of the apples before putting it back. She cannot eat apples, her three widely spaced teeth will not allow it. She knows she cannot eat apples, yet she doesn’t know who I am.
I sigh, and look past her, fixing my gaze out of the window on the disordered back garden. The grass is barely visible, covered with an untidy blanket of fallen leaves in russet and yellow, making the lawn look like an unmade bed. Every now and then the wind whips up and swirls them in circles, depositing them again a few feet from their last resting place. They seem to have caught mother’s attention too and she turns her frown from the fruit bowl to the window, making small, indecipherable sounds. I go over and stand next to her for a while, hoping to calm her agitation, and together we watch the leaves dance soundlessly about. Eventually though, her sounds become more urgent and threaten to become something else. I gently take hold of her arms.
“Come and sit down mum. Do you want a cup of tea?”
Her previous cup of tea stands untouched on the lamp table. But then, there were satsumas. Now, there’ll only be tea. It might work.
She submits and allows me to guide her back to the sofa, still mumbling. She sits for a while, her hands fidgeting in her lap, casting confused looks at the fruit bowl.
Suddenly, she turns her head towards me and says, clear as a bell,
She does this sometimes. It is as if somebody has flicked a switch in her brain causing random connections to be made. They will sputter out again soon enough, but I always enjoy her rare moments of apparent lucidity. This one though is unexpected, and for a moment I am floored. Gerald – my father, her husband. Gerald, who cared for her, clearing away the endless piles of satsuma peel, finding them in unlikely places. Gerald, hollowed out from the loss of our family’s anchor, chuckling as he reported her antics.
“I found a pile of peel in the fridge the other day,” or, “she’d managed to tuck some down behind the cistern. I mean, why does she need to hide it?” And we’d laugh, tears pooling in our eyes. Together we mourned who she had been and tried to seek comfort in what she had become. “She’s as strong as an ox, your mother, she’ll survive all of us,” he’d said after her diagnosis, “trouble is, it’s your heart that keeps you alive, but your brain that keeps you living.”
It was the former that finally claimed him, leaving me the sole clearer of satsuma peel. I stir mother’s tea and take it over to the sofa, collecting the waste paper bin en route. Mother is still looking at me, but I can see she has already forgotten her question. “What did you say, mum?” I ask, just in case, placing the cup of tea next to her. She frowns and turns her gaze slowly on the fruit bowl. Once again, she begins to shuffle forward on her seat. I scrape the satsuma peelings from the arm of the sofa into the bin, watching them fall among the accumulated others, slowly rotting at its base. They are like the fragments of her brain. Disease-ravaged, being whittled away, cell by cell, with every satsuma she eats.
I turn on my heel and head to the cupboard under the stairs, extracting two bags of satsumas. The netting cuts into my fingers as I rip them both open, and tumble all sixteen small, orange citrus fruits into my mother’s lap. “Do your worst, mum,” I say. She looks down, and just for a second or two her face is lifted by something that could almost be joy.
Lying in the bath with the door ajar
I hear her voice clear in the next room settling,
chatting away, sounding out fragments of song,
and, as so often now, I think of you.
Was it like this for you with us? Smiling
off-stage: from infant to adolescent,
soft cooing to lofty pronouncements?
What did you think when you were lying there
absorbing that sudden sentence that floored
us all. ‘I won’t see his family’, you replied.
What if I’d sat beside you, vague hopes shared,
names we might’ve chosen you could repeat,
and I’d say how I’d love them like you loved us.
But those first choices would just be empty hints
and would it matter if you saw a future
false, like I search for this dream of a past?
Is there comfort in the touching distance
of your loss at the first steps of one year,
her arrival at the end of the next almost
beside each other like your name within hers,
and our last years striving somehow to connect?
We could have cherished, entrusted in the link
beyond the given bond of shared blue eyes.
Now a father, I see and feel more like you
than I ever knew; all you did, in the days,
and nights, the unseen love – the faith to live
knowing you won’t see the full story with
those you begin it by. It’s in gestures
we are remembered. How you were with us.
The life given; each gift time brings. The songs
you sang to me – the same songs that she now sings.
First published in The Cannon’s Mouth, March Issue 2017
When in search for something to make my own,
daydreaming self-worth with nothing but air,
how oblivious I was to your home-grown
craft. From youth, your needles never stopped
clicking; that comforting homely rhythm.
Colourful patterns, loose threads strewn by your chair.
Each day always making, always giving
for tomorrow: baby clothes, thick winter
blankets we now hide under; or soft
nativity toys we bring out each year.
What appeared everyday was made to last.
So, when you rallied, your resolution encompassed all.
Despite hope gone, your last day come, still you asked:
Tomorrow, would we bring your needles and wool.
First published in ‘Word Life’: Now Then, Manchester (online), ‘Hope’ issue 52, March 2018, and in Bonnie’s Crew (Autumn 2019).
You equipped us with pens and paper, not just
to keep us busy on long journeys, but to share
your own delight spotting nature. Birds. Rabbits. Deer.
The other hidden lives that surround us.
Yet years later, crossing the high border plains
battling the last rage of a week’s winter’s gales,
our swaying car passing overturned trucks,
we trailed blinking-wet brake lights, seeing nothing.
But on reaching you the wind dropped. Becalmed.
Numbness befitting those first days, sleepwalking
the long, dulled-glass corridors overlooking
the distant estuary, to your blinds-shut room.
No horizon. And within days you were gone.
We quietly retreated South. Routines resumed.
Passers-by in their own lives didn’t know
or care. Held hostage to our senses.
Curtains drawn. Missed calls. Cocooned reactions.
Divisions. Darkness. Darkness. All was loss.
It seemed an age. But out there, light’s gradual reach
thawed the ground to a misty breath. First, snowdrops
nudging through. Birds, skittish, hungry, unseen.
It must have happened because now, here we are:
the sky, a bright and brittle smarting blue.
The air a claw grip achingly unfolding.
But still too sweet, too soon; embattled, winter-braced.
What’s it all for, if not seen by you?
Days must be lived in. What else can we do?
First spring, then remaining seasons must come.
Remembering you anew with each altered one.
The first lambs are born. Let us count them for you.
First published in The Eildon Tree, Spring 2018.
Bringing in the Shrimps
When the ground crunched like shells
and breath hung still as a frozen cloth
Les knew it was time. A man of land and sea
– ate only what he could carry.
Come on lad, he’d call
pulling my man from warmth into the November night
to drive along the bare coast road where people had done
with walking for the day, where trees curved
like net-mender’s hands.
Into the sift of salt-white pebbles they marched
abreast of the tide pressed dark far beyond shifting sands
and where the sea held its breath
set their nets on the bar.
With half an hour to scrape shoaled gullies – timing the turn
just right then back with a catch of phosphorescence
– a mass of heaven
steering into the bite.
We laid white sheets in the moon-shine yard, set wide pans
of water on the stove. My children woke soft-eyed and
wrapped in blankets to watch the sacks of grey turn pink-gold
in the boil – a spread of ancient tender swilled onto linen.
Tipping out an old brown suitcase,
I find you have left me your skirt.
It was a best skirt too: worn mainly
for village fetes, Sunday School shows,
set-menu dinners on coach holidays
to Ilfracombe, Lyme Regis, Inverness.
Pure polyester; so easy for you to throw
in the twin tub, your rock ’n roll spin-dryer
then hang out with dolly pegs on the line
amongst rhubarb and goosegogs to dry.
Once, sea breezes whipped up and blew it
across our field full of Friesian bullocks;
you battled through grass and cow pats
with a long yard-broom to bring it back
to scrub again with Lux soap flakes
and typical feistiness in the scullery sink
before wringing it, pegging it out afresh
with three extra pegs for good luck.
Your skirt held fast to the line this time
whirling, flapping in the Westerly wind;
bright, loud, agitated, strong; an exotic bird
crash-landing on a patch of marshland
at Lancashire’s edge. Your skirt’s patterns
in green, orange, blue, look vivid even now
against the grey; its synthetic sheen is still
silky smooth forty odd years on. Let’s face it,
this skirt was not worn much. It wasn’t done
for folk like you to shock in-laws, neighbours,
and the village set with a flounce of urban chic;
But did it ever look chic on you? Is that why you
left it in the case? So I would wash it, wear it;
breeze into arty parties, like you never could?
Time after time the same bird is born from the flame
Here it comes, shedding embers as it struts
a feathered doppleganger of the last,
an identical gold-eyed genesis
scattering a surplus of silver plate from its claws
shaking down the same, ornate feathers of over ripe-hue
(deep as a peach skin gone to the bad).
Each day we pick at seeds and stringy meat
as the royal bird feasts on incense
buffs its salamander scales with silk.
How did it earn the spokes of sun that ascend from its head,
the nimbus that blazes like a cloud backlit by the moon?
We ache for change, yet each creature that rules the court
is a rooster’s brother with jaundiced eyes.
Not even death will bring an end to this.
The purpled bird stains the air
like dye bleeding through cotton.
Golden swan – you entombed your father
in a burning planet,
emerged yourself empowered.
How wrong we are to think that fire
can cauterise corruption.
Time after time the same bird is born from the flame.
We watch him rise on ash wings
singing as he buries the sun.
plus ça change, plus c’est la même chose
The Star Shaped Scar
It’s night. I’m lying on the sofa and the wind howls through the red clapperboard fisherman’s hut Mum has always called home. The timber frame creaks, there’s a scurrying of blown sand, and I can hear crabs scraping and burrowing under the floors.
I haven’t been up to Scotland for a year and in that time so much has changed. Her face, always so ruddy and strong lined, looks pinched, yellow somehow, and her long sandy hair is now overrun with grey. And I’m not sure if it’s possible but she seems to have shrunk, her once sparkling, mischievous humour blown away. I’ve been here a few days and she hardly sleeps, is always on the move throughout the night, scattering pills, scratching at her self, muttering into walls.
I’m woken by something banging down below. I get up to investigate. The light is on in the kitchen and I can hear her talking:
‘Must get the clock fixed, send old Robbie his cheque, get my boy his milk!’
I feel heat come into my cheeks and I don’t know whether I’m angry or just embarrassed; Mum is naked, wild eyed, the window above the sink banging open and shut on the icy rushes of wind.
‘Oh, Alex, I didn’t hear you. Is it time for school already?’ she says, her voice suddenly calm, matter of fact. ‘Let me heat up a pan and make you a hot drink.’
I feel ashamed that I haven’t visited her more but I’m also ashamed of her, of how she’s become. She walks towards me and I don’t want her to get too near.
‘No, Mum, I’m okay. But I think we should talk.’
I cover her with my dressing gown.
‘Yes, yes, but let’s have a drink too,’ she says.
We sip our drinks together at the table not speaking. Then she says she’s tired and needs to sleep. As she gets up she stumbles and I see her scar again, only it looks purple and angry.
‘Mum, your scar, it looks really bad.’
‘The one on your ankle. The one you got on the beach.’
‘I got it from a shoe buckle, not from the beach,’ and she kisses me on my head, saying ‘you won’t forget the light, son.’ Then, as if on automatic, she clicks it out anyway and closes the door behind her.
I sit in near darkness, the pale blue flame of the hob burner for company (she’d forgotten to turn it off). Above her ankle my mother has always had this distinctive star shaped scar. I’d forgotten about it while I’d been away but I’d noticed it again yesterday morning. She was moving away from me, a pan of thin porridge griped in her hand, treading on the worn heels of her slippers, seeming to slide rather than step. I asked her to tell me the story of how she’d got the scar, a story I’d heard as a child many times before but each time in a different way. This used to be our entry to a shared imaginative world, our spinning of family myth and lore. Yesterday was no exception, just more elusive. By way of explanation she stood over the sink, looked out of the window at the wide stretch of sand and sea, and pointed.
Days later and the sunset over the beach is unpeeling a wound, the sea smeared in yellows and reds. We’ve got back from the funeral. A burial at sea is a terrible thing, the most cold, dismal experience imaginable; I’ve only just stopped shaking. I’m sitting with my sister in the kitchen at the small metal table I’d sat with my Mum only days before. The rest of the mourners are huddled in the lounge. We’re drinking brandy and hot milk. It’s the first time I’ve been alone with Therese for years. She looks lost and tired, and so I lie to her:
‘You were always in her mind, Therese, she never stopped talking about you.’
She starts crying and I feel numb, held in, like a child sleeping under a heavy duvet.
‘I hadn’t rung her for ages,’ she says.
‘She knew how much you cared . . . ’ and then I change the subject: ‘you know the scar above her ankle, she came up with another story about it before she died.’
‘What? What are you taking about?’ She sounds irritated, as if I’ve just stirred her from a dream.
‘She said it was caused the buckle of a new shoe but she didn’t say any more. It made me fantasise about the kind of shoe that might have caused it; like she’d been a glamorous fifties swinger, a femme fatale who danced the night away in a pair of exotically buckled, tight new dance shoes that an admirer had just bought for her.’
Therese isn’t listening, and takes my hand and strokes it up and down intensely like she’s worrying on beads:
‘Alex, Mum didn’t suffer too much, did she?’
Then she cries again, big quaking sobs this time, her features erupting, re-arranging themselves. I feel the shakes into my chest, bruising deep inside, but I’m still in my head and can’t let go.
We both fall quiet and listen to the wind against the windowpane, both remembering Mum in our own way. I think of her a few days before, looking out, pointing, and I break our silence:
‘I think I’ll stay on for a few days.’
Therese kisses me on the head as Mum had done the other day.
‘She would have liked that, Alex.’
I get up and rest my hand on her shoulder for a moment and then go to see how the other mourners are getting on. There are glasses to fill, and maybe more stories to hear.
Later that night I go for a walk on my own. The moon, generous and round sends waves of soft yellow light to glisten onto the slow moving sea. As I walk I pick up shells, feeling and examining them, before dropping a few chosen ones into my pocket. In the shallows where the water lies still and translucent over a narrow trough of sand, there is a small starfish. I gaze at it for ages and then bend down to pick it up. As I do it leaves its perfect grainy outline, its lifetime’s mark from the deep, in the sand. The top surface is rough and callused like an old scab but underneath it’s pearly, milky-white, smooth like ivory. I run the tips of my fingers on its cool underbelly and feel tears, hot tears, salty and stinging, run down my cheeks. I carefully place the starfish back into its imprint in the sand and notice the harsh top layer has cut my skin. Blood drips from my finger and swirls like oil into the shallows.
As I walk back to the house I think about what Therese had said before she left: how Mum first had cancer when I was really young and that her mythical scar came from a simple operation to remove a malignant mole. No one had ever told me story before. I find myself looking up at the sky at a lone northern star glimmering vainly on the horizon. I stare for a moment, then shut my eyes and think about the words I’ll use to tell Therese about the emptied bottle of sleeping pills and Mum’s last, secret late night drink.
No need for any more stories, I just want to get back into the warm, heat up a pan for myself and go to sleep.
I found you tiny stars
in the scree of a quarry scrape.
Broken fragments of echinoid stems
sat in my palm
no bigger than breakfast cereal.
Below us an ancient ring ditch
still sheltered the flock,
above us a hawthorn scratched
at clouds with arthritic hands.
The sky roared by
as you said you would make
a necklace of them,
and told me I had fossil eyes.
Years later, after your death,
I found a stone heart
in the shelter of the dip slope
and placed the fossil urchin
above the portal of the tump
where you had lain
on sheep-cropped grass
and said there was no better place.
The girl in Belsen thought she was dead,
until an English boy who’d never been
to France or Germany,
never asked to leave his Mum
and sisters back in Kirkby,
to run down lanes while someone
shot at him, threw bombs on his head,
came through a gate and gave the girl
in stinking rags who couldn’t walk,
a dish of porridge, a drink from a flask,
and a tube of lipstick red as blood,
glistening and perfumed.
Waves of a swelling ocean,
our fathoming bodies move –
your hips, my answering shape
motion a heady storm.
Shoals of tiny silver fish
flutter through us
an anemone blossoms, unseen.
In the sway of the sea,
our seaweed limbs
caress, relinquish, cling,
tendrils of helpless compliment.
How far would the storm reach?
In a lost moment,
silk ropes entwined our minds,
our fingers prised
the hinges of time and space.
Wrecked and barnacled treasures
(so long, so deeply drowned)
stirred in the shifting seabed,
lit by brief lightning.
Far from you now,
castaway in the sun
on this windswept shore,
I long to tell you:
I see now that each wave
begins to soften the rocks,
each yearns for and transforms the sand.
Some leave gifts
of driftwood, shelljewels, starfish.
you created us by way of nesting, gifting
the place where you are now;
the two-seater sofa a twig in your dove mouth.
emptied three bookshelves that I may roost
the freight of my being when the boxes arrive.
neither of us a songbird, nor caged canary,
nor lark homesteading a downland, yet
you made spaces to merge our songs,
my jazz brooding beside your Beethoven.
photographs hang as blossoms from your life,
you left picture hooks waiting, buds for memories
yet to be agreed. And I embrace your gift
as I embrace the optimism of the half
I could breathe in each last lash of him.
Fatness of fingers half furled,
smell of shelled peas –
such is the feel of new pricked dough
lightly brushed with milk.
That sly slant of eye hoards a foreseeing
loose of words or knowing.
He does not dream as I dream now
but as a sill gathering drops,
a dome’s dark space absorbing whispers.
The lazy crescent moon, tipsy
on a bellyful of night, is hammocked
in winter branches. I’ll watch the sky roam
panther black, count stars as sheep,
not close my eyes for disbelieving.
Put on a fake smile,
gush thankfully, “It’s just
what I wanted.” Already
planning to secrete
it at the bottom
of the wardrobe before
seeing if Sue Ryder
or British Heart
will take it off
your pale hands.
Concentrated smile, fierce
attention, this is your specialist
event and really
you should be in
the medals if you pull out
on the local sand track
in front of a tiny
crowd in the rain.
Put on a brave smile
try to take in the details
of shadows on X-rays
and worrying blood
tests and biopsies
added to a cluster
of symptoms that befell
your father, your mother, your
uncle. It’s a gift.
From biology. No
surprise, it runs
in the family.
He came in by chance
but how do I know that?
After all, I carry on not taking
the road not taken,
whereas when he puts one foot
glidingly after the other
then sits on haunches,
stares with silent seduction,
walks till he meets the rug,
snouts the tassle into a bundle,
then lies with chin resting
in that Zen pose,
who is to say how he chose.
Now he is always there.
Never fretful, often hungry,
lavish in comfort,
mean in moving,
an expert in nudging
and wordless communicator
in the realm of the senses.
We are the ones who feed and upkeep
yet he gives the most
and is mostly asleep.
We Won’t Say Too Much About The Hats
I want a friend like Florence Merriam Bailey.
She pushed everyone around in
the gentlest of ways.
How else could she have stopped
How else could she have convinced
women to stop decorating their hats
with bird feathers?
Five million birds every year—
were killed for
Instead of killing
she suggested we watch birds.
Even in this she was gentle.
When watching birds, she said
no need for a
lion’s roar of technical terms
no raging dullness
just proceed to some
birdy place and
sit and listen in
Florence Merriam Bailey
and started birding
though there is some man
we go to birdy places
His book was too heavy
to carry into the next room
let alone into the field.
All that is needed
Florence Merriam Bailey gently insisted is
a scrupulous conscience, unlimited patience, a notebook,
and an opera-glass.
The three will do if the opera glass is lacking.
The Village Girl
Ning, my high school classmate, and I
choose the highest peak,
to cut bushes for cooking.
The six-year-old daughter
of our assigned family
volunteers to guide us.
The cliff so close,
right in front of us, yet
so far that we are only
in half a day.
Gasping in the summer heat,
we reach the top
on our hands and knees.
Waves of ridges flood our eyes.
Too steep and rugged
to go back the same way
we wonder why we even tried.
“I want to go home,”
the girl sits down and sobs.
On my back, I carry the girl.
Ning, the bundle of brush.
We start to descend
the rocky side.
“Don’t forget that sickle,”
the girl points to the high grass,
“It belongs to the village,”
as tears roll down her eyes.
I slowly squat down and
pick up the cutting tool.
Ning tests the road
I follow her every footstep.
“I want my mother,”
the girl whimpers
and the sun disappears.
I hand the girl the one
watermelon candy in my
pocket. She licks once,
twice, then rewraps it and
puts it into her pocket.
“Yummy. I have to save this
for my little brother,” she smiles,
“we’ve never had candy, before.”
Ning and I stare at each other,